20 Days. And Other Shit.
So much shit going on in life right now it's hard to focus on the trip.
This week is crucial to my assent to greatness in my company. Trying to get kept on by working through an extended audition with potential new bosses by traveling to LA for a vendor site visit (complete, and went fine I think) then 2 days of them here, and 2 days in Phoenix, the potential landing place for me in all this. I'm 90% in the door and will be the guy for this move.
I'm conflicted about that. I've been in the Bay Area since high school, and in The City proper for 15 years. I've carved out a comfortable, boring niche here but it's all getting a bit stale. I live in a fetid closet, and while the rent is low I despise my landlords/roommates and would love to bail on them. I also, as a white, bald, old chubby guy, have zero chance of ever knowing the touch of a female again here. It's just not that kinda town anymore.
So while I'm set up well here, I wouldn't mind a move. The downsides would be ironically having to pay more for rent (albeit in a better living space) and probably having to get a car to get around Phoenix. So i would take a monthly expense hit, and don't expect much if any bump for going there, at least immediately. I would also have to start over building a new site and team under new bosses who don't seem so easy to work for. It's a big life change.
This probably would be the last one. At this point I don't want to flutter about on the job front anymore. I'm only 12 years from "retirement" and sticking with Ro might be the best and only chance I have (via stock options) of not relying on SS to live on cat food in retirement. I've got nearly 2 years invested in this I might as well stick out the change. I'm not too worried about not having a job if this falls through, I've always been able to get a good job when I need one but I really don't want to go through that shit again now.
UPDATE: I got the job and am moving. OK.
But enough life. It's a Vegas Month. Looking forward to clearing this week and getting back to obsessing about a trip that's less than 3 weeks away. It's hopefully going to be a celebratory trip after getting a defacto or actual job offer and take the pressure off. Sure would feel good.
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