Fucking Focus.

Less than a month out, trying to get the hype going.

Just not feeling it yet. As previously stated, Q1 has been a big roiling vat of crazy. I'm forgiving myself for not being as Vegas-focused as I have been in previous years right now. But there's something else going on.

I think I might be losing some of my obsession for V-town. I don't check the Vegas news sites or message board as much anymore. I'm not as laser focused on every new Vegas bar or resto opening. I used to be way more in tune with Vegas happenings than I was SF. That's not the case so much since the December trip.

I've been distracted this year, but maybe I'm starting to grow out of my 10+ year "Vegas Phase". My absolute lack of any fun gambling last year didn't help. Aside from the small amount I've played in other casinos, at MGM props alone last year I played over $40K coin in and did not hit a single, not one, hand pay. For that much coin in I lost over $7300 and just barely held on to Gold status at MGM, the mid-tier level. Harumph.

The year before I hit over $8K in jackpots and finished up for the year w/MGM, so hoping it's on an up year, down year, up year cycle. I think coming home with as much or more as I take this time might brighten my Vegas outlook again. It's a bit punishing to chuck all that money into machines and not see any reward. I'm not ready to jump the MGM ship yet, but another year like last and it will happen.

But, 3+ weeks out, I'm starting to settle into the new job, things are starting to mellow out in life, and I should be able to expend some mental energy on Vegas prep in the the time left. 5 nights at a resort I love for less than $20 all in helps. Not having to stress-save beforehand like in December helps. And just in general, DAMN if I don't need a vacation. Going to try to work in some real relaxation on this one, and come home less destroyed and more refreshed than a normal trip.

Roll on April 20th.